(FOX 11) - For the first time we're hearing from the children of San Bernardino shooting victim Michael Wetzel.
Andrew, Kailee and Caden are the oldest of Wetzel's six children. At 14, 12 and 8, they find themselves dealing with terror in a way they never expected.
"It's still shocking, trying to think about it, it's hard to wrap your mind around," Wetzel's oldest, Andrew said.
"My mind keeps trying to tell me it's not real, but deep down, I know it's real," his eldest daughter Kailee said.
"I got this picture at rock camp and it's the last picture I got taken with him," 8-year-old Caden said while holding a picture from his teacher.
Wetzel, who worked as an environmental specialist for San Bernardino County was one of the 14 killed when Syed Farook and his wife Tashfeen Malik burst into the Inland Regional Center and opened fire last week.
"The last thing we said to each other was I love you and I'll see you next week" Kailee said. "It's shocking to believe it was a coworker who did this, because there's my baby sister Ali at home, and trying to imagine her growing up without knowing her father, really hurts."
Andrew says he wants to reach out to families of other victims.
"There's other people who were shot, not killed, and I just want to help ever family that we can who's been a part of it, I think we need to join together to be a strong force and not let terrorists win," Andrew said.
"We're going to miss him a lot, I love him and I miss him. I wish he was still here today," Andrew said.
Their mother, Amy, who was Wetzel's first wife, says they want to reach out to the other families as they continue to cope.
"We all just do the best that we can..and grieve in the way that we know how and have a united front, not cowering down and letting them win," Wetzel said.
A memorial is planned from Saturday, December 19th at 1:00 pm at Lake Arrowhead Christian School Gym located on the Calvary Chapel Conference Center, 26409 CA 189, Twin Peaks, CA 92391